Archive for February 4, 2006

National? Anthem?

The song that stirs the mind and awakens it to a level of sudden reverence for the country, the familiar verse, whose meaning not many know, yet, every time its played, some sense in the distant mind, that makes you feel proud to be proud to be part of a nation. A song that commands and ode, indirectly.

It was one of those candid moments during this guest lecturer/workshop today when we were made to listen to the national anthem, AR Rahman’s instrumental version. Everyone in class, till now sitting, feel uncomfortable, and finally we all decide to stand, as a mark of respect [?!] for the anthem. A filmsy moment? Or is that patriotism?

I love the song, for what it does to me. For it brings the sense of belonging to a nation, it somehow makes me feel sad, melancholic? Oh maybe just my weird mood!

Liberation, sense of achievement, of the silent creases of power, some pause in the mad life it doth create!

Hmm, senti? Probably!

Was that what it was intended to be? The poet alone knows [despite the various theories]…. That it was originally intended to mean differently, and how it’s taken to be… is a world by itself.

Yet, nothing more apt as Jana Gana Mana, in terms of composition and verse, for a nation, as mine.

Is it respect for the nation or an obligation to sense that you are part of a geographic group? Objectively speaking, it’s nothing great, just another song, which soothes the mind and calms the spirit.[?!]

Is it national at all?

It’s the anthem…!

WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!

Vainness in the mind, weary self to look forward, will I survive? Dark thoughts engulfing the brain, mirages, images, running at speed. The sound of melancholia, I hear, as distant as the music playing from my speakers.

Suddenly life itself seems so trivial, and not worth living after all! So many things we do, things we say, things that hurt, things that make you think, vain, vain, and vain.

F*$% man! I don’t know what to damn write! Mind is just clogged too clogged! If only I could translate the 1000 thoughts per minute into words! ARGH!

Weird it is to be human! Weird to live, weird to waste so much time thinking about nothing, yet about everything!

Life’s WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!! PLAIN F7in WEIRD!